Estella E. Myers

I can’t  believe it’s 12 1/2 years since I’ve seen you. Our family is so broken without you and my mom that it isn’t a family anymore. You two would be heartbroken to see how it is. I hope you and uncle bill find each other one day. I feel so terrible for him and I feel like I can’t go and be with him because I’m not welcomed. I did it to myself I suppose and I accept that as life. I don’t accept anyone hurting him or lying to make them self look better and I have to stay away. I hope you god and him can forgive me for not being there.I love you 

Dear Aunt Estella,

I can't believe that it's been nearly 2 years. I miss you very much, as does everyone. I Pray that you are watching over us, and seeing all that is going on. I'm sure you do, I hope that you are not too too disappointed in the way things seem to be going down here with out you. I know its not all perfect, and that little flee is having a hard time with things. i think that is partly because she misses you so very much and doesnt know how to express that. I know Brendyn is still rather torn also over missing you so much. Funny how things work out I suppose, I never really thought that you would leave or that it would be possible to go on with out you. I do miss you, and I guess you know that I talk to you and think of you almost every day. I do appoligize that I dont come to see you, Its just something that I cant bring myself to do, I dont know why, I think that it was never sad for me as a kid to go, you always made it fun, a feild trip of sorts, and I dont have that anymore, so I dont go. I figure, when I need you you'll be around, so your not there, why go. I dont know. Anyhow, Merry Christmas, I love you and miss you.

All my love,

Lori

Aunt Estella,I really miss you badly. Sometimes I could only feel comfortable talking with you when I was down. Today was one of those days. Just knowing that the Hollidays are coming and we can't sit next to you and laugh like old times.I feel your presence often,but still wish we could just sit together. I'm trying to take care of Uncle bill as best as I can,But I see the hurt in his eyes. I know he misses you most of all. Linda has him over for dinner almost every night.At least we can watch over him a little this way. We just hung a nice picture of you by the bar. I can see it this way every time I'm downstairs. I pray that you are happy in heaven,The little ones miss you a lot to, Yesterday Felicia even made French toast and let me know that it is the way you taught her,with just a little vanilla in the eggs. I'm so glad that She and Brendyn will always have your special memories to keep in their hearts as do all the rest of us. Just know that until I see you again,I'll watch over everyone for you.

                                                With eternal Love

                                                     Paul

Aunt Estella,when my life began you were there..when i took my first steps you were there..when I said my first word you were there..when I started school you were there..when I was sick you were there..when I broke your heart you there..when I got in trouble you were there.. when I needed to talk you were there..when I made mistakes you were there..when I failed you've been there..there has never been a time you havent been there for me.How can I begin to tell you how much i love you and how thankful I am to you and how thankful I AM That you've always been there for me,I am sooooooo sorry I wasn't there for you that day.that day twice I called you and you And you didn't want me to come over afraid I'd get sick, I wish you had let me.Maybe i could have help you like you done for me all my life...whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !oh Aunt esttela I miss you so much I will never forget you ever.

Dear Aunt Estella,I'm being selfish now because of how much I miss you.But I wish you were still here with us and that I could hug and kiss you! I know your in heaven now,but sometimes I ache so awfully bad for you to be here with me.It was so hard to watch you leave.I must admit there's grief and hurt inside me,that I am not over yet.I cried so hard and wept so much that I can't speak or see,I'll never let you go from my heart and mind.I LOVE YOU FOREVER!  LOVE YOU FOREVER LINDA XOXO